Let Go

 

 

In the spirit of the new year and the idea of fresh starts I’ve been thinking a lot about all the stress and heaviness that I carry around with me every day. Oddly enough most of which I have absolutely no control over, so it begs the question, why? It’s a proven fact that stress causes a whole host of problems like anxiety, exhaustion, headaches, digestive distress and ulcers just to name a few.

I ain’t got no time for dat!

It’s time. Right now. It’s time to let it all go. I am no longer going to be a victim of my stress. I am no longer going to let it be the thief in the night taking my sleep. I am no longer going to let stress put my stomach into knots. I am taking back control of my mind and my body.

LET GO!

 

 

The kids are 10.5, 8.5, 5 and 5 (8 weeks till they’re 6) and the older ones are always fighting with the younger ones. The younger ones are loud when they play. They run. They sing. They throw things. They talk in funny high pitched voices. Oh and did I mention that they’re loud? Well that noise won’t last forever, thankfully. I have to admit, I was a bit sad to realize that my older girls are at a quieter age. An age where they would  rather read or watch TV or listen to music than play with Barbies or dolls. They do play, don’t get me wrong but the play is different. It’s quieter, more reserved, more theatrical and thoughtful with hours of prep and staging. And so while I stress about the screeching from the twins who are on the cusp of being 6, it will be bitter sweet when they turn 7 and 8 as the house gets quieter and quieter. And then there will be the silence of the teen years where they won’t want to talk to me at all, retreating to their rooms and their friends.

Sigh.

So hey, why stress about it? Why bother stressing when I hear what sounds like a herd of hyenas running down the hall or the crowd of voices created by those 2 little girls clinging to their imaginations? No more.

Double sigh.

They’re growing up so fast.

Before I know it, they’ll all the teenagers going off to high school then university.

Teen-agers! 4 of them. Girls! Can you imagine?

But…

What if they try smoking?

What if they have shitty friends?

But what if they want to go to a university far away?

What if they don’t get into university?

Oh god! Here comes more stress!

 

What can you let go?

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